Kiss - Because I Am A Girl

This Song was a hit during 2002 year.. Too bad, this band was disband in a very quick way~
Still i love the song and the MV..



yoja inikka~

lyrics and translation..

I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

Hey babe
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you

don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

Lyric is different from the youtube.. But i also don't know which 1 is more accurate..
Just listen to it and feel it whatever you like~!
This is how to enjoy the song!!
ENJOY~ Merry X'Mas~!

New design~! New Me =D

Totally in love with my blog right now..!!
Fair skin colour with Jeon Ji Hyun on my header.. ^_^
So gonna love it.. Updated with Kara , SNSD and Tara pictures too~!!
HOHOHO , Christmas coming after our mid-term exam.. So any plans?
@_@ , gonna discuss with cyber's fren to have a class trip?

It was 6.21am in the morning..

i think i will gone crazy soon with my sleeping time as i mixed it up with day and night
i wake up in the middle of the night and i had insomnia.. WTF!!!
i think it was like ytd, i slept at 9pm and i woke up at 4am... Uhmm, approximately
7 hours i spend on sleeping.. Ok , that was quite ok for me...
But now i was starring the computer from 11pm till now 6.21am.. i didnt sleep at all...
this life is really threatening, as everyone around you is sleeping except some frens who are
kinda crazy and also have an upside down lifestyle with me is chatting with me right now
the sun is going to rise soon , i will be going to my class later... LOL , kinda hardworking right?
Just joking by the way... it is very miserable to hav a lifestyle like this.. and it is getting worse...
Where can i look for treatment? @_@

感触

一些丝丝的回忆，
旋转于记忆里，
怎么想，也永远抹不去
成绩放榜了，
考得一团糟，FAR = = i really hate you！！
也许，一切是注定的吧，
信心满满，到头来还不是一样？
读书方式不对？还是不够努力？
也许吧，不想再为自己找借口了，
真的好累，是真的很累了
将一切丢到后面再学习，一切已经太迟了
我fail，但我fail的起，至少我没作弊
到头来，才发现原来一直徘徊的
一直都是幻觉，一切真的只是一场梦
当一个人需要你的时候，他们就会找你
别人永远不会记得你的好，
你帮了人，你认为别人会永远记得你的好？
当一个人不再需要你的时候，你死了，他也会不闻不问
这时，你才会看清楚，人，可以很丑恶，也可以很漂亮
朋友多，但知己少
这时我才发现，
原来知己是如此的难寻
的却，真心朋友不必多
也许吧，一切已变得不重要，
为人着想，别人会为你吗？
别那么天真了，人们总是喜欢50不笑百步
永远看不清自己，我也承认我是那样的人
人，不需要多余的陪伴，要得只是一点点的安慰
但往往人忽略了，唯有知己才了解
一个人，也没什么不好，也许偶尔会寂寞
但,是时候开始慢慢练习
因为，你永远不知什么时候，你会一个人

p.s : 河流之所以能够到达目的地，是因为它懂得怎样避开障碍！

=）i can do it..

留念

很多人都说
过去的就让它过去吧
不过，有些东西你却一辈子想让时间静止
把那美好的回忆停留，但现实总是那么的残酷
快乐的时光，总是那么快的飞逝
痛苦的时光，总是那么慢的度过
考试期间就是最好的例子 =____=
但，是不是觉得假期却过得十分快
看回过去，我们遗留下很多那些我们回不去的从前
中学毕业，和一班朋友分离时
第一次拿到驾车护照，踩下油门，到处乱跑
和朋友一起在班里有说有笑，一到下课，
一起到食堂吃早餐
第一次到大学里，来到了新环境
第一次离开家，到外面生活
第一次，和朋友驾车出远门
这些已成往事的回忆，永远只能留在心中

如果人生少了考试，这关永远是最难熬
我们也永远不会珍惜假期
如果人生少了朋友，友情永远是最坚韧
我们也永远不会珍惜朋友
如果人生少了父母，亲情永远是最值得信任的
我们也永远不会体会到家的温暖
如果人生少了回忆，那些永远是一种遗憾
因为我们会发现我们并没有为我们
的成长过程
留下

一些脚步....

单身日记

一个人，真的很孤独，但幸运的是，我拥有朋友
一个人，真的很脆弱，但幸运的是，我拥有家人
一个人，真的很没趣，但幸运的是，我拥有活动
一个人，真的很无聊，但幸运的是，我拥有音乐
一个人，真的很孤单，但幸运的是，我拥有自由



其实我还蛮享受一个人的生活
=D

I think i didnt update my blog for quite a period..
Sorry ya my dear bloggie.... I abandon you again.. too busy this few weeks
Zzz , finally today i had the time to play futsal with my housemates..
Seriously , hanging out with friends really brings a lot of joy and laughter
just the financial situation control us from that.. =(
sad , how i wish i got unlimited resources..(yea , in my dream)
Honestly, i think i didnt go out for some exercise this few months..
Quite bad for my health.. =(
Hell shit , this few weeks gonna be busy week , tons of assignment.. stupid tutorial
and lectures to study? i don't want to fail anymore.. Arggghhh

So now what? Time to get back to my assignment again.. =P
wish me myself all the best..

I am waiting for Wednesday and it is a holiday , although 1 day , but i think i gonna spend it by watching movies!!! Yeah!! Inception.. (i am kinda outdated.. Zz)
Forgive me la , my hometown don hav cinema.. =P

Sony NEX 3 , i am looking at you =D

Lovely Smile~

幸福

常常听人说
幸福是要自己争取的
其实何谓幸福？
拥有一切想要的东西？
跑车，美女，房子等等...
其实，最让我觉得幸福的事
是我最温暖的家，最疼爱我的家庭
也是我最值得牺牲的一切来保护的家
因为，它恢复了昔日的色彩..
错误，每个人都会有...
但，其实不去追究，也是一件好事..
也许真的有些事情无法改变，
那么便让时间带走它吧
其实一直以来，我的却对家人不闻不问
但每当遇到挫折，先来慰问我的
是我最爱的女人，妈妈...
她从未反对我所做的每一件事，
只要我高兴，她都会支持我...
当然，不是那些伤天害理就可以了 - -“
幸福其实都在我们身边，
不需要去争取，不需要去欲望，更不需要去抢
一个短短的周末，在家里，
躺在最温暖的床，看着笔记电脑里的电影
偶尔闷的时候，便和朋友出去走走，散散心
看电影，说说笑....
这往往
也是一种幸福~

Ideal Type.. XD too free...

pai seh, cannot sleep during midnight...
nothing to do at all... so update blog a while.. LOL
just now go out yam cha wif dom , andrew and bernard..
really have a good time with them, unfortunately it starts raining cat and dog
wtf... really stupid weather.. when we trying to get to our car, the rain drops heavier and heavier
but it was 1.30am , we should be leaving cause they have morning class tomorrow..
wat the... when we reach bukit beruang, no more RAIN.. ZZZ
the GOD must be crazy... when we have the intention to leave, He was like purposely to make the rain bigger causing us to stuck at the stupid mamak stall... summore we couldnt talk cause the noise caused by the rain drop is too loud, we need to talk louder as usual...
but sometimes i feel that it was very nice to have a bunch of friend gather together and talk about our past.. it was sweet memory indeed and sometimes we really have to laugh at ourselves about what we have done in the past...

Well, back to the TITLE display on my blog... XD
my ideal type.. paiseh , u all should know my ideal type shud be korean gals.. right?
well , i have a surprise at the end of the blog...~
just to share with u all about my ideal type..
btw , bernard always say i keep change my favourite artist..
seriously , i cant deny it.. because they are just just just so perfect to me..
but i know there is nobody as PERFECT.. XD


Name : Gianna Jun(Jeon Ji Hyun)
Age : 29 (October 30, 1981)
i know she is quite old for me.. but currently there are rumors about her and Rain.. Uhm? i think they quite match to each other.. As korea no.1 actress with korea no.1 celebrity.. How about that? LOL


Name : Kang Ji Young
Age : 16 (1994-01-18)
LOL , she is the type that i want for long time, cute and i dono what to say? innocent?seriously seeing her smile can really brighten up my days..(yeah, i know i am quite crazy = =)
btw, although she is 16 years old , but her height seriously doesnt match her age... She is cute and my most lovely member in KARA

Name : Ham Eun Jung
Age : 22 (1988-12-12)
Perhaps this gal is the most seductive gal for me.. Perhaps to say she is quite mature? Erm, seriously natural Korean Beauty~ She has the image of the Korean side.. I just dono how to describe.. btw, call me insane instead.. XD

Name : Kwon Yuri
Age : 21 (December 5, 1989)
hehe, i think she is my most favourite member in SNSD!! Dancer , cute image, btw she dont like to lose.. = ='' i really enjoy watching her dancing, although her singing ability couldnt compare to others but her funny acts and many of her little thing really does bring a lot of joy...


Name : Kang Ji Hyun(So You)
Age : February 12, 1992 (1992-02-12) (age 18)
Erm, freshie in Kpop? Yea, she just debuted not long ago with the song 'Push Push' , this song is really catchy, seriously it was nice..! as she is a newcomer.. so seriously i dono much about her.. Well , her fresh image really put a 'A' grade in my heart.. her voice seriously is very much, especially the part she sang about "she is different from others, sexy gal" hard to type in korean.. so i just direct translate to english.. = =''


Name : Park Ji Yeon
Age : 17 (June 7, 1993)
Seriously this gal is really talented.. She just finished filming Gosa 2 aka Death Bell 2.. Really looking forward for this movie although this is a scary movie.. although i dont like watching ghost movie in the cinema bcuz of the stupid sound effect.. but for her, i think i willing to watch.. and call me moron by the way... HAHAHA..

Name : Goo Hara

Age : 19 (January 13, 1991)

This gal is very sexy and very cute.. HAHA , her waist is only 20 inches , believe it or not?
= =''
seriously u should watch her in Invincible Youth, she is totally HOT! i think i continue to watch the show without yuri and sunny and hyuna, she plays very important role.. I think she sometimes really cute ^^
and the MOST surprising part....

Name : Bernard Lee Xie Ming(JOKING)
Age : 20 (birth date forget liao) lazy go check cause he is not worth for me to check on.. XD
joking joking
he is the only my foundation classmate leftover in Malacca as others went to cyber and other are different course from us.. So everyday we usually have our dinner together.. It may sounds gay.. but of course, i think 40% of my daily routine is with him.. excluding holidays..
haha...

Bernard if you see this post , i think the 1st word u will say is : "sohai"
Am i right? i know u too well.. XD
BYE , time to off for bed.. Night!

Rest~

A busy weekend with friends from Cyberjaya..
Wee kiat's birthday had spend us a day
and of course our paintball activities is another..
suddenly feels that happy moment passed very fast..
Phew, somemore to catch up with FIFA world cup 2010
this few days is really tiring and busy.. Zzz..
Finally today i made it , i SKIPPED the stupid BHR class and take a good rest
at home, but the weather is too HOT... i cant sleep at all.. = =''

人，也会有累垮的时候
试着放慢脚步，好好休息一下！





btw, she is Eunjung from T-ara...
Always support her ya!
LOL , how i wish i can sleep like her~
Eunjung fighting!

Long Lost Memories...

Time pass without any warning..
I didnt realize i had leave my secondary school for 3 years~
3 years seems so short.. Everything happened in a blink of eye
Sometimes when you walk into the society,
you really have to admit Life is Hard
we used to dream about freedom..
Yeah , now we get it..
But we miss where we belong..
for 17 years, i have been staying at there...
I really miss my hometown..
I wish to go back there... T.T
seems like many of my junior had grown a lot..
Hell , kinda a bit zzzz
Well , sometimes i just wondering,
what will be my future?
yeah , being an accountant and sit at the firm , working whole day?
nah , i don't like to work.... Seriously.. Zzz
So? - -'' when i figure it out the thing that i want to do,
usually i forget in a couple of minutes.. Zzz
Then i remember about the 6 months free after my SPM
erm, really miss that kind of long long long holiday!!!
Arggghhh!! WHY MMU holiday so short? from 3 weeks reduced to 2 weeks.. Zzz
6 months!! i shud had done a lot of things.. Zzz
Nvm
Off for ITALY VS PARAGUAY!!
World Cup~ Lets go!

Stuck

It has been a long long story..
I think this part was the worst in my life..
I never failed any subjects no matter during my primary , secondary
even foundation..
But i eventually failed my FAR during Beta Year for the 1st time in my life..
Every time i c ppl failed their paper.. I was so sad, couldnt help them at all..
Just know how to console them.. But i know the feeling..
The feeling is the worst at all.. Well , maybe some people are lucky..
Like what they say.. I suddenly feel that i really have to wake up..
Time to be much more responsible
Don't wait , wait till the last minute
Do it , don't waste time
But is that really me? Sometimes my dignity is really make me gone mad..
I have a thing in my life who stop me from success , arrogant / stubborn...
I doesnt like to listen to people's advice.. Well , sometimes i may even consider..
but i think i would hardly accept it..
Is it an act of immature? I just don't know anything about it..
Well , maybe like what people say , FAR is hard.. but still they manage to pass it..
What i get is 'F' in the result slip.. It was hurting me badly..
I don't know how it feels when getting a 'F' during the exam.. Fine!
I screwed up my FAR and i screwed up everything..
PTPTN will be barred from 1 sem.. As what they say , but i don't give a damn..
it is ok for me to go through a life which is boring, yeah , i have to stay at home and STUDY!
oh this is madness!!!
For me? That is totally impossible... Should i? Just a damn stupid thing.. Aiya , don't have to care about it , late people 1 sem only ma , doesnt affect much...
Yea , that was in my thinking for few weeks ago..
But seriously, i can't let go of it...
Mom say : it is normal to fail an exam , do ur best next time..
My mom is really an understanding person , she doesnt scold me at all, but to console me and teach me , why and why and why i failed this exam.. Now i know..
Family , is really important to me..
When i left my home for my study , i totally ignore my family , only they phone me , but i never phone them, even it was , i was just asking for pocket money.. Useless right?
Yea , blame me for everything , i used to hate it so much.. But now , all i want is to turn back everything , this is not End of the World , this is the beginning..
It starts over and over again.. I had this experience during my form 2, although didn't failed my exam , but 121 ,this figure is damn stuck deeply inside my mind..
She changed my life eventually ,
i used to hate her so much , but i would like to say thanks to her(my secondary teacher)
it was upon some reasons.. Now i know
Secondary teacher is much MORE better than University Lecturer..
I know i shudnt blame them for failing me...
I know where my standard are...
So i think it is time to reset...
I cannot be like this forever...
I have to change it..
I feel that i just stuck in the middle of nowhere...
This feeling sucks!!
I hate it but it was my mom , who had gave me a lot of support...
MOM , you're the best in the world!!
I just wanna love u forever till the day i die...
Sometimes tears doesnt bring sadness away , although i didnt cry
but deep inside , the satisfaction level is totally negative..
I hate to lose sometimes
SO I WONT GIVE UP..
I wont let it happen again...
This i promise myself... and to my dearest mom...
I will get up and make everything back to normal..
I can make it right... I knew it...
This is because i have the most wonderful woman in my life and
she is my past girlfriend , my MOM



MOM , i love you deeeeeeeeeeeeeeply in my heart... Thanks!

我的全智贤

T-ara Eunjung~

Didn't visit my blog lately~ PAI SEH arrr... T.T''
busy lately , today my MUET just over! Gratzzz to myself.. = =''
although it isnt tough as i thought , but nervous still there..
i still got a bit 怯场~
but the feeling is quite ok.. =D

hope can get BAND 3~ ^^ then everything will be over...

~.~'' Today would like to blog about an idol again.. PAI SEH ARRRR~..
Her name is Eun Jung!! From T-ara, she is a leader too.. main vocal and rapper..
yeah! i love T-ara rapping song, just dono why.. if interested , try to search
T.T.L(time to love) - T-ara ft Supernova..~ Quite nice although old song.. =D



her pure face without make up( when she was 1st debut.. singing LIES~)

the song is quite ok , the song is performed with ex-members , Ji Ae and Ji Won
they both left the group due to the song style they wished to sing.. i get this from wikipedia by the way.. = =''
soon Boram (Dominic's fav) and Q-ri(she is pretty but sometimes her face was like.. errrmmm
how to say? EMO? LOLx) suits KAY~ ^^
ok.. back to Eun Jung

if u look at previous pict and u say she is kinda not pretty.. LOL
then you are completely wrong.. now let us c...

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ta da!~

completely different right? maybe because of her hairstyle.. love her 99

LOL , now let c her another side...



black and sexy with eye shadow ON..~
i would like to tell her : please kill me softly... XD
jk jk...~

• Birth name: Hahm Eun-jung (함은정)
• Date of birth: December 12, 1988 (1988-12-12) (age 21)

lately she got problem with 'swearing at invincible youth' = =''
got a bit stunned.. those anti-FANS really annoying.. she jz talk something very quietly.. then
it was like a big matter to them.. Pity Eun Jung~ T.T''
but it is over now.. she is cute.. lol~
paiseh , i think i ki siao liao.. = =''
SO... plz support her always ya!
Eun Jung T-ara...

And share with you all... her pre-debut pict...

in this pict... i feels that she looks like someone..
Chelsea... (faggot wee kiat's sister) XD
i think he will hunt me down soon.. LOL
GOT to go now..
I will blog about Jeon Ji Hyun(Gianna Jun) next time..
For those who taking exam.. GOOD LUCKS!!!

Story of a boy and a gal

It all happens during secondary school,
that day was a sunny day,
he went to the canteen, rushing there because he was too hungry
as he only consume a milo drinks every morning(yummy)
she was carrying a bowl of hot noodle soup, was trying to find her gang
to eat together..
this is how they meet and get close..
their 1st affair...
he accidentally pushed the gal, the noodle just spoiled.. OMG
he was so nervous, well , this kind of small matter...
buy new 1 only la, walao e, that gal dun wan...
she wan a chicken chop.. = ='' how can she be like tat o?
RM2 = noodle
RM5 = chicken chop..

So the boy have nothing to say , what to do? Hello, u cause people cannot eat le..
u dun wan to buy meh? >.<'' Soon, they start to talk, play around , even though they are different class but still their bond with each other still very strong... so 1 day, the boy went to tuition.. >.<'' as he heard that the gal have to wait for her mom to pick her up.. He decide to accompany to walk around the shopping mall..

That is the 1st time they date.. The boy bought an ice-cream for the gal , two childish children sitting at the bench, enjoying their vanilla sundae cone.. That was so sweet...
Sooner, the boy realize he had fall for the gal... But he duno how the gal feels.. He was very nervous.. So after they were graduated, the boy decide to propose to her..
He even go to buy a new shoes because of her.. He dressed well that day, and ask her out.. The reason he tell her is i feels boring...
He never date her before.. But surprisingly, the gal nodded her head and say 'yes'! The boy was so excited and happy..
But the bad things come when the happy things passed..
That day was a rainy day and She was sick.. How sad the boy is..

So he have the intention to give up propose to her..
She didn't online during that week,
heard that she went to KL to have her treatment for dengue..
The boy was so worried about her, but what can he do?
a 17 years old boy with no money,no car license, and credit card, how he went to KL to meet the gal? >.<'' he pray for her every night before he went to sleep.

Few days later, the gal came back, but the boy doesn't have the courage to ask her out again. So he just sit at home, enjoying his holiday by watching television and play games. During evening, the phone rang... he was too busy playing game, didn't notice who is calling him... so he just pick up the phone..
Stranger : "Hello, XXXX there?"
Boy : "Yea, wassup , busy now.. Who are you?"
Stranger : " U duno me meh? walao e, ppl sick liao, u nvr console ppl, now asking who am i? so sad la!"


Ehhhh??????? the voice sounds so familiar..
OMG , it was the gal! >.<''

Boy : "paiseh lo, how i know is u, u sounds so weak, why not take some rest?"
Gal : "Like tis la, people want ask u out, u ask ppl sleep at home.."
The boy stunned...
His mouse suddenly stopped,
and his hero just stand there and let opponent pawned him.. = =''
> hello , concentrate plz< ~.~''
the boy tot he was dreaming... but he is not..
he pinched himself again.. ouch, it was pain, it was REAL! >.<'' she ask me out...!!!
OMG!! OMG!!

After hanging out, the boy feels that he cannot wait anymore.. Is now or NEVER.. The gal is going to leave the town soon to further her study..

So he ask her , what she feels about him?
At 1st, he never expect the gal to say something nice to him, cause they both always jokes around... >.<'' but that day, she say the boy is protective , sweet and care for someone.. Wow, how happy was that boy! So he propose to her.. The street light was so attractive, the cafe left only him and her.. the staff was busy cleaning the table, and


this is how he hold her hands for the 1st time..

비(Rain) - 널 붙잡을 노래(Love Song)

널 붙잡을 노래(挽留你的歌) - 비(Rain)
Back To The Basic



오늘도 서성이는 너의 집 화가나는 걸/今天又在妳家门前踱来踱去 然后生气了
나는 힘든데 나는 힘든데 이렇게/我好累 我真的好累 该怎么办
하지만 나는 어쩔 수 없어/但是 我却什么也不能做
니 맘을 돌리긴 너무 늦은걸/要让妳回心转意 已经太迟了
끝나버렸어 어쩔 수 없어 이젠/现在 已经结束了

한순간 내 몸에 익숙했던 니 손이 날 밀어내/就在那一刻 我熟悉的妳的手 竟然将我推开
나는 어떡해 나는 어떡해/我能怎么办 我该怎么办
오늘도 떠나간 너의 숨결 아직도 널 사랑해/已经不在我身边的妳的呼吸声 但我却还爱着妳
나는 어떡해 나는 어떡해 제발/我能怎么办 我该怎么办 拜托
오~ 제발 돌아와/哦~ 请妳回到我身边

난 니가 생각 나 자꾸만 생각 나/我总是想妳 不停的想起妳
예전처럼 니 손 잡을 수가 없어/却没办法像以前一样 紧紧握住妳的手
난 니가 너무 좋아서 너의 모든 걸 못 잊어/我是这么爱妳 妳的一切都牢记在脑海里
이 노래는 널 붙잡을 수 있는 노래/而这首歌 是要挽回妳的歌曲

한순간 내 몸에 익숙했던 니 손이 날 밀어내/就在那一刻 我熟悉的妳的手 竟然将我推开
나는 어떡해 나는 어떡해/我能怎么办 我该怎么办
오늘도 떠나간 너의 숨결 아직도 널 사랑해/已经不在我身边的妳的呼吸声 但我却还爱着妳
나는 어떡해 나는 어떡해/我能怎么办 我该怎么办

나와 마주치던 그 눈빛으로 그냥 나를 다시 봐요/请妳用以前与我相望的视线再看看我
그 눈빛 내게 말을 해줄래 아직도 사랑한다고/用妳的眼神告诉我 說妳现在还爱着我

한순간 내 몸에 익숙했던 니 손이 날 밀어내/就在那一刻 我熟悉的妳的手 竟然将我推开
나는 어떡해 나는 어떡해/我能怎么办 我该怎么办
오늘도 떠나간 너의 숨결 아직도 널 사랑해/已经不在我身边的妳的呼吸声 但我却还爱着妳
나는 어떡해 나는 어떡해 제발/我能怎么办 我该怎么办 拜托
오~ 제발 사랑해/哦~ 拜托 拜托 我爱妳

I really love the meaning of this song..
of course the dance move made by Rain is still very cool..

Random post

I really really hope that
time can be reversed... but i know it is impossible
i really hate myself
why i being here?
i am a failure
i meet something bad
and my mood will be disturbed..
mood swing i mean...
i really hate that kind of feeling..
where is the original me?
do i care about it when i was young?
i getting more emotional than before..
is that a good thing?
some people may say i m kinda harsh
some people may say i m kinda stubborn or weak , bla bla bla, watever...
i don't really care what people say
i am standing in here right now
but i just don't know where i should going
instead , everything just seems like out of my control
i feel that i need to face many things as i grow up
is there more pressure in the future?
i guess it is...
oh shit, can those stupid stuffs just leave my mind for a moment? please?
such a headache things to think about....
can i cope with it? i just don't know about it
my heart is broken ,
seriously i am still not over it (something deep inside my heart)
why? why this happening to me? i really couldn't understand...
as i watch other people, other children ,
my heart really bleeds... sometimes , tears filled up my eyes..
just it never flows out...
i really need to find back myself...
who am i? watching myself through the water....
it wasnt me , it wasnt anyone...
it was a stranger......
i really miss the moment that somebody is consoling me
i really miss the moment that i feel sweet
i really miss the moment that we being together


I WANT IT BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

My Sassy Girl

lately i just watched a movie call 'My Sassy Girlfriend"(Korean version)

Yea, it is an old movie, i still remember i watched it with my family few years ago..
but i think there isn't any more chance to watch movie with them anymore..
Sad T.T , being a grown-up adult sometimes isn't a good thing...
When we were small, we keep thinking that being adult is good...
But as time passed by, start to miss those sweet memories since childhood..
Erm.. i still remember her when i was in primary school.. Should i say 1st love?
her name is 李丽欣.. that's what i remember..
She just sit beside me when we are just kids, 1st day i went to standard 5
i was arranged to sit beside her till standard 6... As u all know, i skipped my standard 3..
we were so innocent when we meet each other... Too bad, she left me during standard 6..
She is going to KL due to her parents' career.. So she just left me alone in KB, i wonder
if she never leaves me, what will happens between both of us?
When i went to form 1, she did send a greeting card to me, but i was too young to think of those
love stuffs , so i just ignored it... Hell.. = =''
I didn't even reply her anythings.. So everything just be normal till today..
Just hope that she still remember me if we meet someday.. =)

I'm too into my past till i forget to intro u all about the movie..
Hell , the movie is nice, i wonder why i never notice about the meaning inside the movie?
Maybe i was too young when i was 10? LOL...

The synopsis was so long, so i would recommend you all to read it through google.. = =''
I love it when Jeon Ji Hyeon ( 全智賢 ) said you would die, if you didn't do this , do that..
I love it when they exchange shoes, because her 'girlfriend' feels pain by wearing
high heels..
Any gals mind being my girlfriend , and let me try on your high heel? XD
joking only, but i do really hope to find someone like this..
Playing with some funny stuffs when sitting on a train..
Pinch my ear when i doesn't listen to what she said..

Besides, i love some quotes inside this movie,

- Fate is a bridge that brings lover together
- I trying to find somebody's shadow on you
- As I love you more and more, deep inside my heart, i feel guilty
- You will die if you don't follow my words

This movie is really funny + sweet too.. =)
Yawn~ Time to sleep
and dream of my sassy girlfriend!.. Night

In the end

Before that
i was thinking that to find a girlfriend who can :

a) drive nice car and fetch me (if can , hope it is lamborghini la.. cause girl looks hot with a sport car) but in the end, looks like i'm the driver... ~.~'

b) dress nicely so it will attract people's attention..(hot and pretty, of course..)
but in the end, i feels that it will be a pressure for me to cope with... T.T''

c) be by my side when i need her... (seriously i need her when i feel depressed)
but in the end, i feels that i was too selfish to keep her from other people.. @.@''

d) be my type... (mature , stylish , pretty , sexy and others.)
but in the end, i realize i wasn't perfect too.. >.<''

e) quarrel with me all the time... (quarrel with something funny or something small)
but in the end, i realize gals really dun wanna hurt the one they love.. ^.^

f) travel with me to the place where i want.. (cause seriously i really like to travel...)
but in the end, i realize everyone is different , no matter via background , interest and others.. *.*

but in the end, i realize

if someone love me, and i love her too... and
this is what i want...

My wife~

Ermm
Love grow in a smile and end with tears..
but i hope i won't shed my tears for my wife.. ^^
today i would like to blog about my wife...
her name is civic
hope u all dont mind.. =)
her age is 4 years old right now
the story happens 4 years ago..
me and my dad went to car dealer(ban chu bee)
and ask me to pick a car.. as u know
honda city 1st generation has many problems..
well , accord and civic(new release on that moment)
my eyes only focus on her..
her shape , design , engine sound , the i-vtec tat symbolise the honda car
so i think i had fall for her..
i still rmb the day i met her..
after my tuition class, and i went to pick her up
the 1st time.. i sit inside , what i feel is
comfortable
stylish
powerful

i nvr had a chance to be with her as u all know ,
i didnt get my license 4 years ago
so i had to drive kancil (which consider as my 2nd wife)
then later only i drive my wife..


Headlight

dashboard(meter)

my CD player..(displaying Lupin - Kara)
i was listening to this song when snapping tis photo.. ^^

My dad say an empty promise (so i duno whether is true or not)
he will giv me this car when i was 21 years old..! YEAH..
but expect too much , get much more dissappointment
so i dun wanna think about it..
post end here.. Cheers guys.. appreciate what u hav now..
Quote : To love a car is better than loving a person

Gonna back to MALACCA tomorrow..
god, please lead me to where i belong
give me strength to hold on my faith to you
i do really love my family
my friends
Incidents that happened doesnt stop me
i had to be strong
to protect the woman that i love the most..
this i promise you.. forever..


Indeed , i m the best actor in the world...
Without any emotion in my face but only happiness
but u nvr know what is deep inside my heart..
wounds that can nvr be healed
scars tat nvr dissappeared..

UPDATE UPDATE

Jz got back from Pulau Redang.. ~.~
Tired but happy.. Really went there without any worries
F those stupid stuffs that bother me for such a long period!
but when i came back to my hometown..
Wat the hell , the stupid PTPTN stuff again..?!
@$%^! Arghhh!!! SIEN la... Why everytime it hav to spoil my holiday mOOd?
haiya , dont care la..
go back malacca just settle..! ^^ happy go lucky..


I found that i
really hate government servant(except teachers)
phone around 20 times , always
"HARAP MAAF , SEMUA PEGAWAI SEDANG SIBUK"
hello , we pay tax to get this kind of service? MALAYSIA boleh.. ( tis quote sux@.@)
what a failure.. BOO for malaysia.. = =
One Malaysia = ?? ONE race? for wat?
Malaysia Sucks!!
Redang is really a nice place to hav vacation.. especially for couple..!
= = , but 4 stupid and noob face male went there without any gals.. WTF
sien 99 , can u try to imagine? 4 men sitting at the chair at the beach
watching HOT chicks around pulau but none of them belongs to us..( T_T )
some ppl may think we are gay? o.O? who knows.. = =''

we didnt bring camera there.. so i just snap using my phone
noob phone.. pai seh..
Ok , back to reality.. stupid stuffs coming
BUSY BUSY BUSY
hate it..!! @.@
Fine! post ends here... PTPTN plz pick up my phone plz.. (?_?)
i wonder whether those ptptn staffs are having sex in the office rather than picking up phone
(sorry , yellow minded.. ^ ^)



"Things aren't the ways they looked"
"Happy can be sad , sad can mean to be happy"
"Somethings dark, bad memories, i hate it.."
"Why this happens to me?"
"Hate it"
"There is no more place for me to depend.."
"I always alone and always..."
"Drama can be true sometimes"
"To believe is to prevent"
"Plz come back to me.. my confidence"
"Seriously i need u"
"I hate somebody who interupt my life"
"I hate somebody who think too much"
"I hate somebody who disturb my family"
"I hate to love somebody tat i don't wan to"
"I really hate hate bitches...!!!"
>.<'' my emotions are unstable lately..!

EXAM

As u all can see
Exam is really annnnnooooyyyiiiinnnngggg!!!!
AGREEE???
3 hours paper for the stupid FINANCE...
30+ formulas to memorize


In the mean time , u all also can see my table is in a mess
ohhhh! after exam i gonna clean up tis mess... @,#''

Carlsberg + twisties + burger = enjoyment

exam mood will be over tomorrow~ Yeah!
but i m suffering now.. T.T


Good Luck to me~ Baby
Saranghaeyo~ ^^

And... Not to forget to introduce u all...
Ermm ermm.. Hehe
An idol again...
KARA--!!!
Hara Goo~



This is a must watch variety show..
Invincible Youth..(G7)!! u can find it on PPS , or
if you wan.. you can get from me..
Cause i m addicted to the show too.. XD
<<<>
she will be wearing it again(i mean for the wedding dress)
It will be the day...T
HE DAY WE MARRIED... =) ..

pai seh, lately i like to dream...~
tata
10 hours to hell
13 hours to freedom.. Yeah baby!
FIGHTING!

L.O.V.E

Trying to make my blog colourful
Not emo anymore.. ^^
School has been tiring for me
Exam , assignments and presentations.. Arggg..!!
I wish i could just dump it and runaway,(how many times shud i repeat this sentence..)~.~
i've been missing lately because i've been so so so lazy to update my blog
anyway, i m updating now.. =)

Now, i really hope to look back all the things that i have done before
then i found something that really lift up my spirit..
well , she had grown up.. Totally different right now
instead of saying she is hot , i prefer to say she is mature.. ^ ^
Well, she is in a relationship , congratzz!
Cool ya, i never though she gonna be in a relationship during tis few years
Uhmmm~ , mayb i m wrong now..
Anyway, wish her all the best for her love journey! (don ask me who is it..)
i dont wanna say it.... the reason = don't know , mayb i just dun wanna mention about her?)
She will remain secret forever.. @@

Looking at her, i feel that do i really have to be mature right now?
Isnt it..? Maybe you all will think that i m childish and kinda.. ermm? funny and cute?
(i think someone is gonna vomit after this.. XD)
I just don't like to be serious sometimes..
Life should be happy and enjoy,
if you are sad , will the sky turn black because of your mood?
for me , to pass through everyday without any stress and problems
i think that day will be the best day of my life..!

I suddenly feel so tired about what im doing right now.
went to schoool , sit down , and listen to the boring lessons?
Back home and do nothing but watching drama?
hello , any entertainment please..?
i m demanding~!!
T.T , really miss those old times during foundation
just 20 minutes, my car will be full of passengers ,
lets go to somewhere else!
Now , my backseats always remain empty.. (sign*)
Guys, seriously i miss u all !
P.S : I m not gay.. = =

Eat, sleep, study , exam
Hell yea , this is my schedule everyday..
Sometimes i wish i could just sleep all day long
don hav to wake up~ nah , that was just a stupid things that i always think of AND
i never really did it.. (*sad)
I feel really lost , i feel really confused, i'm in a complicated mess , oh god , please save me..
but luckily i know things are going to be alright soon.. (i just dono why , my sense told me so..)

A girl can make me laugh , make me smile , you bring joys into my world.. Sadly , still nobody can complete my life.
It is sad to say so when you really love somebody deeply , try to think not only yourself but
others
one hand doesnt clap , it takes two ,
the same theory applys to love matters.
it takes two hand to love and it takes 2 person to fall in love..
Hell yea , i love this sentence.. LOL

=)
I start to learn about photoshop skills lately..
Well , time to share..
i waste 3 hours to complete this photo
Anyway , introduce her to you all
her name is Park Gyuri
Guess what? she is only 21 years old
Leader from KARA..

I have been a KARA-holic lately..
Post end here.. NightZzzz~

time is not going to steal away the love i have for you.
Don't take this too serious.. well , i mean for this sentence..
(winks*)..

MV for Lupin - Kara ^^

Another girl group - Kara

Well , yesterday the MV for Kara - Lupin had released..
Erm , look back , shity the Liverno(music store in malacca), my Kara Revolution(2nd album for Kara) havent reached although already passed about 4 - 5 months already..
= = , stupid sia , make my passion for KARA all gone..
Nvm , i found the passion back through Lupin MV
Erm , how to say? it is totally different to see them
Especially Goo Hara, if you watched Invincible Youth(G7)
then u will know what i mean
or refer to ah sim's blogspot (sim831.blogspot.com) for further information for Goo Hara

She is indeed sweet enough to hook all our men's heart.. Include choosy Kay ^^


Kara - Honey fashion (when they are sweet and innocent)^^
it is their song 'Honey' who breaks SNSD - 'gee' 9 weeks winning

Now back to Lupin


Totally different right? Become more mature and sexy~ ^^

And let me introduce a girl that i notice her lately
her name is
.
.
.
Kang Ji Young~ 강지영
Believe it or not? Her age is only 16
Her D.OB is January 18, 1994
2010 - 1994 = 16!
She is cute enough and mature enough ^^

Saranghae... ^^

만약에 - 김태연 (소녀시대); If - Taeyeon(SNSD)

Taeyeon - leader of SNSD

Ohh!!! Lately so in love with this song , although it is an old songs
but the rhythm of the songs still so wonderful , soft
Share with you all 1st :

만약에 내가 간다면 내가 다가간다면
manyage naega gandamyeon naega dagagandamyeon

넌 어떻게 생각할까 용기 낼 수 없고
neon eotteoke saenggakhalkka yonggi nael su eopgo

만약에 니가 간다면 니가 떠나간다면
manyage niga gandamyeon niga tteonagandamyeon

널 어떻게 보내야할지 자꾸 겁이 나는걸
neol eotteoke bonaeyahalji jakku geobi naneungeol

내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도
naega babogataseo barabol su bakkeman eomneungeon amado

외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐
oemyeon haljido moreul ni maeumgwa tto geuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga doelkkabwa

정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
jeongmal babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
mannamdwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

만약에 니가 온다면 니가 다가온다면
manyage niga ondamyeon niga dagaondamyeon

난 어떻게 해야만 할지 정말 알수 없는걸
nan eotteoke haeyaman halji jeongmal alsu eomneungeol

내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도
naega babogataseo barabol su bakkeman eomneungeon amado

외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐
oemyeon haljido moreul ni maeumgwa tto geuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga doelkkabwa

정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
jeongmal babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
mannam dwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

내가 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도
naega babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐
mannam dwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

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If I go, if I go closer to you
I wonder what you may think, I can’t drum up the courage

If you go, if you go away from me
It is scary to figure out how to let you go

Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,
is for fear that you may turn your face away, and
you and I may drift further apart

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,
is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

If you come, if you come closer to me
I really don’t know what to do

Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,
is for fear that you may turn your face away, and
you and I may drift further apart

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,
is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,
is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

The best part i love is
Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,
is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

Random Post and My dream girl =)

I have been in this world for 19 years..
Well , it may be a long duration, but today when i look back to all my secondary and primary photo.
It feels like it all happens in just a blink of eyes.
All those things seems like an illusion for me.
Watching myself in front of a piece for mirror , my height , my weight , my face , everythings had changed..
I love travel , i admit it , besides , i like freedom too...
I really love to travel alone without any people beside me..
Jz that i never had that chance till now
I wish to go Korea alone but my dad said to me , you were too young to go alone
I wish to go Bali alone but i feel a bit scare..
Why i am like this?
I need someone to hold on , but i don't wan to be in a relationship
I need things that i want , but i just cant get it
I really wish that someday i can just leave it all and runaway..
To tolerate , to endure , everything
I just don't know what i want..
Well , at least i know music is the medicine for me right now..
By listening to the music
Everything will be fine
Miracle is just a things that i never expect
I only believe in myself to get the things i want
But sometimes i do dream about it
Why i am expecting things that will not happen?

Am i waiting for the right person?
Is it worth?
I don't know...
But watching her
It does makes me smile..
Life is hard indeed


Well , i just don't know what i am writing , maybe lately it is kinda boring for me to do so
Mid-term coming , tons of assignment , oh my god!
I hate MMU , i just don't know why i choose this university
regret is too late for me.. Haiz..
Seriously , i need my own opinion!
I need to be happy!
I need freedom!
I need time!
I need money!
I need to be success!

Well , i think it is time for me to introduce the girl that lift up my day for nearly 1 year..

ta
ta
ta!



her name is Kwon Yuri (권유리) !
Haha , i think you all should know that the girl i wish to get is her, right?
But i think is just a dream..
Well , her smile is really charming and attractive
i won't feel boring watching her pictures all day
well , maybe you all will think that i m kinda crazy..
Well , indeed i am! XD
Now lets cheer up , tomorrow will be fine!



Currently listening to
Girl's Generation - It's Love (Taeyeon and Sunny)
Heading to the ground OST

SNSD album finally reached.. ^^

Wow , waited for so long
Finally SNSD new album - Oh! reached..

Share with you all 1st :

SNSD - 2nd album : Oh!
Heard kay said that every album will give 1 random card of SNSD..
So me and kay are kinda dissappointed..
Because he get Jessica
I get Sooyoung
LOL , but nvm la , at least we got the album far from Korea..
Ermm Ermm.. look back , i think i havent update my blog for kinda long duration..
So sien lately.. Shud jz stay at kb sia.. Zzzz.. ahhh!!!!!
I wan my freedom
I wan everything

Seriously need a vacation without any worries..!!